weekend fun!

I am excited for this weekend!! whatever it may bring!!!

Three days...

It has been three days now of a non-stop headache... sometimes it just hurts so bad!

I feel like crawling back into bed and sleeping the rest of the week... life can be so hard! I wish I could be content and happy... I wish I knew what to do with my life... do we ever really know what to do? or do we just do what is decided for us... thats easier letting someone or something make a decision for us and then for us to just go along with it or adjust to it. I am good at that... I am good at surviving... I know how to do that... I just don't know how to do this.... 

my head is going to blow up!

I think my head is going to blow up it hurts so bad and is filled with so much snot!!! 

I got a hair cut tonight!! I didn't want to get one, but I was sick of my mullet!! it is alright.. short... but ok :) I kind of think it makes me look like a different person... let me know!

Loans

So, I have decided that I hate loans!! I mean who doesn't really... The the housing market dropped so much that our house might not be appraised high enough!!! and I can't even be on the loan because my credit score doesn't meet the new requirements... damn you credit cards! I wish I didn't want so much stuff! So, this brings me to the question how much stuff or things do we really need? After our house fire, I didn't need very much because I didn't have anything. Everything was either in storage or got ruined.... now that I'm back in my house I need EVERYTHING!!!! I wish that I could live a little simpler. This is what I am going to do, I am going to try to not buy anything accept food for one day! ok that might be to easy how about one week.... then maybe a month and so on. I feel as though Americans just buy so much crap. When I worked at Bittersweet in Lacrosse they would get boxes and boxes of crappy Christmas merchandise from China and then they charge so much for it.... and what does it really do for us accept fill our land fills, it might give us a sense of joy for a few moments and give us that warm fuzzy feeling of Christmas inside, but should we be spending time with our families and friends to get that feeling? What if we stayed home one night and baked with a friend, sharing stories of past Christmases and how things were done in different families and at different times, but instead we are just buying junk junk junk!

any way... I stayed home sick today... I slept all day and I still want to go right back to bed. It doesn't help that I have to get up at 3:00 am to go to work tomorrow morning! oh the joy of taking school pictures!

Feeling sick....

Man oh Man who knew that taking pictures of school kids for 8-12 hours a day would be so draining! At the end of the day I don't even feel like talking or seeing anyone... This is really putting a damper on my social like.... I feel like I have been letting a lot of relationships go because I have been so busy taking care of other aspects of my life. It is hard to find a balance. The up side of it all is getting to know people during your times of struggles that understand what your going through.... they get it.... they don't judge... and you can trust them with everything.... God is so good with that in my life! I believe that we have friends in our lives at different times for different reason. One friend might be great for one struggle while another is there for you for something totally different. I feel so fortunate to have so many great friends that have helped me get through a lot of tough times.... they come and go like the leaves and the flowers and the snow... and as the seasons go you know that they will come around again, just like a good friend when one or the other is in need.... I just wish we didn't always have to let the really good ones go....

I have been listening to a lot of Snow Patrol lately.... you should too they have some good tunes!!!!

Run by Snow Patrol

" I sing it one last time for you, then we really have to go, you have been the only thing thats right, and all I've done... and I can barely look at you, but every single time I did, I know we'll make it any where I'll wait for you... light up light up as you have a choice even if you can not hear my voice I will be right beside you dear.... louder louder and we will unfold our lives...."

Somewhere a Clock is Ticking by Snow Patrol

"I've got this feeling that there is something that I'm gonna miss... something happened that I never understood... you can't leave you can't leave... Every second dripping off my finger tips... wage your war wage your war... I'm am a solider that says he's no afraid to die... I'm so scared I'm so scared..........."

Open your Eyes by Snow Patrol

"All this feels strange and untrue and I won't waste a minute without you... my bones ache my skin feels cold and I'm getting so tired and so old... the anger swears in my guts and I won't feel these slices and cuts.... I want so much to open your eyes cause i need you to look into mine.... tell me that you'll open your eyes tell me that you'll open your eyes... tell me that you'll open your eyes tell me that you'll open your eyes... get up get out get away from these lies because they don't get your soul or your fire.... take my hand knot your fingers through mine and we will walk from this dark room for the last time.... every minute from this minute now we can do what we like anywhere.... I want so much to open your eyes cause I need you to look into mine....."

The funniest thing about me and Snow Patrol is that I got into them when I was looking at my friend Nicole's Profile on Myspace and she had Chasing Cars with Boy as her song while she was dating Shawn... just think it's funny how we find the tunes we love!!

So look up Snow Patrol!!! and if there are any bands you folks think are good let me know!! because I love music!!!

My First Blog!!!

This is my first real blog!! I am excited... but also tired.... I need some sleep, and it took me to long trying to figure out a name for my blog... good night!